Unstoppable Scribblings
June 20, 2009
MY NAME IS
XANTHE
AND I AM UNSTOPPABLE
At last, I am settling to pen down my post-camp reflections! No comments about what took me so long, but with all felicity and gaiety, I have graduated from Unstoppable Camp with the application still fresh in my head and heart for once.
CAMP OPENING:
Camp Opening was absolutely not the most glorious item and honestly I was rather abashed to tell others that I headed it! It is so human to want to claim credits for a job well done, but when they have made a mess of everything, they attempt to hide in the burrows they dig. With all guilt and shame, I fit that description like Cinderella’s feet in her glass slippers.
It was not easy dealing with the unspoken disappointment of others and perhaps the self-imposed chagrin. Albeit the unease and all, I thank God for setting me up for this blunder. If he had not, I would have very well become a snob!
I wonder which manufacturing company was so prosperous to spare me enough balls to share this.
ROD:
The next three things which God convicted me about were:
- Relationship with God
- Outreach
- Discipleship
Imagine being thrown the job of a babysitter for a day, with zero knowledge about the baby’s habits, needs or temperament – the frustration can drive you nuts. It is the same with God. I find it pointless to serve a God whom I am not familiar with. It is easy to let our ministry dictate our relationship with God because of how the infrastructure has already been set up so nicely. Ministry becomes the drive for us to draw close to God – That is the reason why many of us become lost when we play a different role in a new ministry.
Our relationship with God should be the reason why we serve in our respective ministries and not the other way round!
I am determined to get my daily walk with God right – I want to be neither a lazy bum nor procrastinator so keep me in check!
As for outreach, I think it is something that I need and can be more deliberate in. Having graduated from the school that I am pioneering does not authorise the discontinuity of sowing. God’s compassion extends beyond the people in our academic schools. Wherever we are, whatever we do, whoever we outreach to, is not for us to gain that leadership title or so that we can hit a certain goal. No. Outreach should be a lifestyle. Outreach should be in our blood!
I want to be more confident and assured of my convictions, principles and beliefs and not be afraid to be myself or share it with my non-believing (and even some believing) friends!
Lastly, if it were not for the vision which had captured me a few years back, I doubt I would be doing what I am doing now.
I want to be more diligent in my leadership. I think I have grown fatter and lazier over the years (even in the way I type, the number of words in my paragraphs are shrinking!) I want to sweat more. I want to cough out more blood. Not literally, figuratively!
I have our Church’s Combined Service bulletin, a foreword by Pastor Jeff, stuck onto my notice board. It reads 2009 Year of Preparation. Unstoppable was not a oh-my-dog-just-died-and-I-flooded-the-camp-site-with-my-tears stereotype kind of camp but it was a very simple yet essential revisit of the basics. I believe it is the stepping stone towards a greater and glorious near future.
If I don’t have the intention to finish the race well, why did I even sign myself for it?
I am clear of my win and I’m going all out for it. Don’t try to stop me. I am going to be invincibly unstoppable!
Unstoppably,
Xanthe
