The Movie of Life

As much as I enjoy movies that boggle the mind and leaves me with many interpretations and thoughts, there is this other side of me which would very much want to uncover the very intent that the script writer wanted the movie to illustrate.

The same relates to my life. As much as I cling on to the belief that ‘everything happens for a reason’ and that ‘God has a plan for me’, it can’t be helped that the mind has a carnal leaning to question the contradictions of reality. I wish I had answers to the burning questions conjured when things in life spin out of orbit.

On a side note, it is the suspense that makes a movie worth the watch, and a good movie is one that is able to keep its audience at the edge of their seats, and eager to find out what it’s going to be next.

When I reach heaven, the first thing I’ll ask God to do, is to play me the movie of life on earth. Then I will be able to get the answers to the questions that I never had answers to – the reason to life’s misery, the reason to life’s pain and sufferings, the reason for the good and the bad and how I came to be.

Meanwhile, I will relish in the ‘suspense’ and cling on to the belief that ‘everything will be made beautiful in His timing’!

Left Behind

I reckon it does not expend much of us to be able to rev the engines of our cars down a narrow road when our headlights are fully charged. But, when our surroundings begin to mist, and our windscreens start to fog, will we still dare to drive at the same intensity as when we first started out with?

Probably not.

It is undeniable that a few fanatics would maintain at that speed, or even rev up their engines. The common majority of us would probably release the accelerator pedal. Some of us might possibly attempt a jam break, eventually leading to a complete halt. Whatever it is, we all respond to the stimuli of palpable dangers, be it a feeling of uncertainty, or a matter of insecurity.

How easy for us to be brimming with passion when our directions are clear, and when we are certain of who we can be, or where we are going to be. But when the directions are not as vivid anymore, our motivations, whether subtly or consciously, become buried beneath our insecurities.

I have no idea what tomorrow holds. I have no idea if I’m good enough. I have no idea how much time I have left in Youth before I ‘expire’. But one thing I am dead sure of (at least after tonight) is - I am left behind for a reason. As Daniel had put it aptly, we are not just here to make friends and be comfortable, because if that is the reason we would have already moved on. We are here because the word ‘Central’ still touches our hearts, and the idea of ‘Youth’ still excites us. This, is the very reason why I am convicted about leading to the best of my ability, at every stage, and in every season of my life. I want to give my best wherever I am, because this is what God has called me to do. Central A is what God has called me to build.

P.S. Thanks Daniel, for helping me find my passion and conviction through the strangest, yet most meaningful ways ever. In times when everything seems to be breathing down your neck, nothing can beat having a friend who steps in to assure you of the very reason of what you have been called to do. (:

Oh, So Fickle

My social life is depleting already and yet I can still be fickle about what to do with my free time tomorrow.

As I contemplate escapism, another voice in my head tells me that there is a need for me to find myself.

Est. 2003

This Is, Love

你爸爸知道你最喜欢吃这个所以昨晚买了两个给你。。。

I have never, ever, told Dad about my love for anything, much less waffles.

Tonight, I know I’m loved. Psalms 139.